Today Daddy and I were chillin’ on the front porch. It’s our spot. Anyways, we’re sittin’ there and I see the Terminix truck pull up. I ask Dad, “We due for the Terminix guy?”
Dad says no. We watch then as the guy backs his truck up our neighbor’s driveway on the right and we don’t think anymore about it.
A couple of minutes go by and I look up and see halfway down our long ass front yard that there’s a fat white and gray cat walkin’ through. Y’all got to understand my Dad is highly allergic to cats so he basically HATES THEM. So me bein’ me, I egg the old man on. “Dad, there’s a cat in your yard.”
No lie, what he does next is what he does every time there’s a cat in our yard.
He starts yellin’, “Hey motherfucker, get out of my yard!”
This always cracks me up because let’s be real. He’s talkin’ to that cat like A) it understands, and B) it gives a shit.
WE ALL KNOW CATS DON’T GIVE A SHIT.
Anyways, he keeps yellin’ and cussin’ at the cat, who by the way wised up and realized he needed to get goin’ because my dad was obviously not a fan of Puss In Boots.
The cat gets almost all the way to the far right side of our front yard, a dozen feet or so from the poplar tree line we have that separates our yard from our neighbor’s yard, and I happen to look past the cat to see the Terminix guy standin’ in our neighbor’s driveway, with his head cocked to the side, confused as hell as to why my dad is yellin’ at him to get out of our yard.
Seriously guys, I laughed so hard I almost fell out of my chair. Somehow I managed to tell Dad the Terminix guy thought he was yellin’ at him and not the cat… and then of course my dad starts yellin’ at the bug guy.
“Not you man, the cat! I’m yellin’ at the cat!”
Terminix guy gives my Dad a thumbs up and I’m still dyin’ laughin’ in my chair. I told my dad, “I don’t know what’s funnier. The fact that he’s gonna go in our neighbor’s house and tell them that you called him a motherfucker or the fact that you almost got your ass whooped by the bug guy”.
By the way, the cat disappeared while I was laughing. He probably thought we humans were bat-shit crazy.
I hope you all enjoy this insight as to what my life is like on a daily basis.
I’m pretty sure I’m just gonna start sharin’ all my Dad stories so everyone can laugh with me. 😉
It’s June. And now, as a mother, June has a new meaning for me. PRIDE month. I keep my Minions’ lives very private. I’m a Mama Bear you do not want to mess with. I protect my babies with a zealous, paranoid fierceness some people think is a little nuts. So I debated about if I should say anything at all. Put my daughter’s private life out there for the world to see.
Then I realized something. Nothing is more important than my daughter knowing that I’m proud of her. She always knew both her father and I would love, accept and celebrate her no matter who she was as a person. That doesn’t mean it’s been easy in other aspects of her life. Especially lately.
So this is me, telling the world, my oldest daughter is gay and I am so proud of her. She’s a strong, amazing human being that has a huge heart that’s one of the purest I’ve ever seen. I’m lucky to be her mother. I’ll love her to the day I die and I’ll protect her from anyone and everyone who might want to hurt her because of who she is and how she loves. This is now what June, and PRIDE month, mean to me.
Be true to yourself my friends. Be brave.
LOVE IS LOVE.
<3 Always, Jessie Lane
Today is the LAST DAY you can bid on Just For Jordyn Auction items! I donated my entire backlist to this awesome auction. It supports a teenage girl who is doing her best to kick cancer’s ass! The auction organizers have my books set up in Series auction lots and one separate lot for all my standalone books. SO, if you would like to get: Regulators MC 3 book Series (signed by both me AND Chelsea Camaron), Ex Ops 5 books & 2 novellas Series, Big Bad Bite 3 books & 1 short story Series, Star Series 2 book Series and/or a lot of ALL of my standalone books – GO BID NOW MY FRIENDS! All you have to do is search “jessielane” in the Just For Jordyn group. 😀
Anyone who knows me, or perhaps has read my Ex Ops Series, knows that I love quotes. Today, I give you some of my favorites to honor those who gave their ALL so we could enjoy our freedoms. #HonorTheFallen #MemorialDay
“Our flag does not fly because the wind moves it. It flies with the last breath of each soldier who died protecting it.” – Unknown
“Without memory, there is no culture. Without memory there would be no civilization, no future.” – Elie Wiesel
“For love of country they accepted death, and thus resolved all doubts, and made immortal their patriotism and their virtue.” – James A. Garfield
“Those who have long enjoyed such privileges as we enjoy forget in time that men have died to win them.” – Franklin D. Roosevelt
“No man is entitled to the blessings of freedom unless he be vigilant in its preservation.” – Gen. Douglas MacArthur
“It is foolish and wrong to mourn the men who died. Rather we should thank God such men lived.” – George S. Patton
“A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.” – Joseph Campbell
“Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of readiness to die.” – G.K. Chesterton
“Our nation owes a debt to its fallen heroes that we can never fully repay.” – Barack Obama
“America without her soldiers would be like God without His angels.” – Claudia Pemberton
“No duty is more urgent than that of returning thanks.” – James Allen
Hello all my lovely readers out there! For the first time ever, I’m having a clearance sale on my signed paperbacks. 🙂 I’ve been advertising this for the last couple of days on Facebook, but I’m only making it here on my website now because I was having some serious technical difficulties! And when technology doesn’t like me I sort of turn into the Hulk and want to smash things. It’s not pretty y’all. Anywho, I only have a handful left, so it’s first come, first serve.
I prefer to mail with the padded flat rate shipping envelope for $7.50, however, if you would like to save $2.50 you can ask for the Media Mail option in the “Anything Else I Need To Know” category.
If you have any questions feel free to ask! ♥ Jessie Lane
This is what I have available:
I try to tell you all the time, but sometimes I feel the need to find new inventive ways to show you just how much I adore you all! How about an epic giveaway to show my love for you? 😉 Runs from 2/14/19 – 2/28/19 with three winners being picked on 3/01/19 by me! All you have to do is follow the donating authors on Bookbub & Instagram! Easy peasy. 😘
CLICK HERE TO GO TO THE RAFFLECOPTER TO ENTER TO WIN!
Giveaway open to USA & International. This is our way of showing you, the reader, some mega love and telling you how much we appreciate you!
1 lucky Grand Prize winner will win the following:
1 All-new Kindle Waterproof Paperwhite with 32 GB storage and 3 years of accident protection from SquareTrade
1 $100 eGift Card from Amazon
and the following from Participating Authors:
A.C. Bextor – Ebooks: Empires and Kings and Saints and Savages (The Mafia Duet)
Alyssa Day – Ebook: January in Atlantis
Amanda LeMay – Ebooks: The Sakana Series Books 1, 2, & 3 ~ Kiss of the Winter Moon, Shadow of the Summer Moon & Dance of the Hunter’s Moon
Ann Gimpel – Ebook: Timespell
Aubrey Bondurant – Ebooks: The Without Series (3 ebooks)
Brighton Walsh – Ebook: Tessa Ever After
Candice Gilmer – Ebook: Out of the Tower, A Charming Fairy Tale, Book 1
Cathryn Fox – Ebook: The Playmaker, book one Players on Ice series
Chianti Summers – Ebooks: I’m Coming Home and Renovate My Heart
Cristin Harber – Ebook: The Savior
Eden Summers – Ebook: Hunter
Elle Boon – Signed Book: Dark Embrace signed by Elle Boon
Golden Czermak – Ebooks: The Secret Life of Cooper Bennett AND Cooper Bennett and the Devil’s Ire
J.K. Harper – Ebook: Dazzled (Dragon Mates Book 1)
Jessie Lane – Ebook: of Winner’s choice from backlist
Jaycee Clark – Ebook: Deadly Shadows
JC Andrijeski – Ebook: Black In White (Quentin Black Series #1)
Jill Monroe – Ebook: At the Heart of Christmas.
Julie Chance – Ebook: Her Playbook
Karen Renee – Ebook: Unforeseen Riot, the first book in the Riot MC series
Kristin Harte – Ebooks: Payback and Retaliate, the first two books in the Vigilante Justice series
Lacey Black – Ebook: My Kinda Kisses
Laurie London – Ebooks: ASSASSIN’S TOUCH and ROGUE’S PASSION
Lexxie Couper – Ebook: Destiny’s Knight (Guarded Souls Book 1)
Lisa B. Kamps – Ebooks: The Chesapeake Blades ebooks 1-3 (Winning Hard, Loving Hard, Playing Hard)
Mari Carr – Ebook: June Kisses
Mindy Klasky – Ebooks: Magical Washington: Four in Hand (four complete novels in my Magical Washington universe — witches, vampires, werewolves, and more!)
Nadia Lee – Ebook: of Winner’s choice from backlist
P. Jameson – Ebooks: All is Bright (A Firecats Prequel) & Heart of Gold (Firecats, #1)
Patricia A. Rasey – Ebook: Hawk: Sons of Sangue
RE Butler – Ebook: Saber Chronicles Volume One (4 sexy, fun novellas about saber tooth tiger shifters)
Renee George – Ebook: Gone With The Minion (Madder Than Hell Book 1)
Robyn Peterman – Ebook: Were We Belong (Book 5, Shift Happens Series)
Rosalie Stanton – Audio Book: Firsts
Ryan Michele – Ebook: Connected in Pain
Sapphire Knight – Ebook: of Winner’s choice from backlist
Sharon Hamilton – Signed Book: SEAL Love’s Legacy (new book) signed by Sharon Hamilton
Terri Anne Browning – Ebooks: Angel’s Halo MC 1-4 collection edition & The Rocker 1-6 collection edition
Tiffany Roberts – Signed Book: His Darkest Craving signed by Tiffany Roberts
Winter Travers – Ebooks: Burndown and Holeshot
2 Runner-up Winners will win:
1 $50 eGift Card from Amazon (each)
Terms & Conditions:
Giveaway runs from 2/14/19 – 2/28/19, ending at midnight on Eastern time. Winners will be chosen randomly by Jessie Lane on 3/01/19. Winners have 72 hours to email Jessie Lane their acceptance of prizes and physical mailing address (NO PO Boxes allowed) at: email@example.com
If the winners do not respond in the given 72 hour period they forfeit their prizes and it will be awarded to another reader chosen randomly from the giveaway. Each author participating in this giveaway is responsible for mailing/emailing the winner their donated prize. Jessie Lane is not responsible for other authors’ donated prizes. Jessie Lane will mail the winner their Kindle Paperwhite and/or promised eGift Cards from Amazon. When she mails the item it will be with tracking (unless shipped Internationally) and Jessie Lane, nor any other author participating in this giveaway, can be held responsible for lost or stolen merchandise. Giveaway open to USA & International.
In less than four hours the magical midnight hour will arrive and I will welcome a new year with open arms. Are you as eager for the New Year as I am?
To say I have been quiet this year is an understatement. Of course, there are reasons for it. In the past I have tried to be open and honest with you all about my depression, as well as my other medical problems, and how it has affected my writing and/or personal life. Despite my openness about those issues, I kept some details to myself.
“Why?”, some of you might wonder.
The answer is simple… and equally complicated. At least for me it is.
I had loads of uncertainty about telling every one the exact details of my actual diagnosis. There was even some fear that some people might abandon me due to the stigma that sometimes come with mental health issues.
However, I have reached a point in both my personal life, and my writing career, that I have decided to push past the fear and uncertainty to be more honest about my condition. Not that I feel obligated to let you all know everything that’s going on in my personal life, because, and please don’t take this personally, I don’t feel obligated at all. We’re all allowed to have a personal life, right?
That being said, I came to the conclusion that I wanted to tell my readers the whole of it so that perhaps some of my past actions (or inaction) might make more sense. Perhaps if you all knew what I went through on a daily basis you might understand why I am the way I am. So, here it goes.
I am BiPolar II.
There, I said it and the world didn’t implode. I also took a quick peek out the window closest to me and made sure there were no flying monkeys or other general, scary signs of impending apocalypse. Yippee!
For those of you who don’t know what BiPolar II is, here’s the definition from the National Institute of Mental Health’s website:
“Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks. There are four basic types of bipolar disorder; all of them involve clear changes in mood, energy, and activity levels. These moods range from periods of extremely “up,” elated, and energized behavior (known as manic episodes) to very sad, “down,” or hopeless periods (known as depressive episodes).”
So, in essence, I go through periods of depression AND periods of mania. Depression most people get. Mania, well, have you ever seen that Vraylar commercial with the lady and the post-it notes? If no, you can check it out by clicking here. It’s not an official YouTube upload by the pharmaceutical company, so I’m not sure how long it’ll be up, but it’s the perfect example with how my brain works when I’m manic. In essence, my mind races with all these thoughts and ideas until I go overboard. I’ll start four different books, decide to spring clean my house, and take on additional outside projects all at once. So many tasks that if I were in my right mind I would absolutely know I have no time or energy for. My mania makes me feel like I’m Super Girl – I can do it all.
Until I crash and I realize I really can’t.
It gets worse, I don’t just crash, I go into a deep depression a lot of times. The sort of depression that requires a good bit of medication that will help me do the simplest of tasks, like getting out of bed… or even worse, not hurting myself.
Okay, so here’s the point where you might wonder “Why is she telling me all of this now?”
My reasons are two-fold:
- I wanted to let you know that I get that in a lot of ways I’ve let you down with not writing certain books that you want.
For instance, Alec’s book in the Big Bad Bite Series or Declan & Teagan’s book in the Ex Ops Series. I reached points of mania, started too many projects (including these), crashed from the mania into depression, and then lost momentum and interest in those stories. It also means I have several book ideas that I have started that you guys have never even heard of! One day, I hope to bring ALL of these stories to life for you. Trust me when I say – I really do WANT to write them. I just need to be in the right head-space to do it.
Add in the fact that I had several (some almost life threatening) reactions to medications I was put on for my BiPolar II in the past few years, I hope you can understand why I have been sort of all over the place personally and professionally. Some of the medications made me spiral into the worst depression I have ever experienced. There were honestly days I didn’t think I was going to make it. I lost hope, I gained about a hundred pounds, and even worse, I lost myself.
Thank God I have an amazing family and wonderful friends in my life! They kept me going when I didn’t want to. They loved me through it all, even when I couldn’t love myself. I also had many readers who messaged me, emailed me, and sent me notes in the mail telling me how much my books meant to them. I can’t thank any of them enough. Not my family, my friends or those readers. Know that I love you all immensely and I am beyond grateful for your love and words. You literally saved my life.
2. If being honest about my situation helps anyone else out there struggling with BiPolar II, then that’s just proof that in my own way I’m kicking BiPolar’s ass.
I have long admired Demi Lovato for being open and honest about her BiPolar Disorder. She’s been a strength for me when I had no strength for myself. Even through her trials and tribulations, she’s been a strong advocate for mental health. Watching her struggle this year was hard, but also eye opening for me. It made me realize that I had to fear my diagnosis less, and try to understand it more.
To wrap things up (I honestly didn’t mean to write a short book to tell you all of this), going into 2019 I have two main goals.
First, work on my health. That includes managing my BiPolar II and working on my weight for health reasons. I had a scare with possible Congestive Heart Failure this past year, and I’ll be honest with you, I wasn’t able to afford all the tests. For now I’m going on faith that because my EKG was normal that I’m fine at the moment. My goal is to lose the weight, improve my health, and if I have any more symptoms find a way to afford those tests.
Secondly, I’m going to get back to writing. I have not published a book in over a year now. My writing muses are finally speaking to me, and instead of trying to “force” myself to write a story I know you want, I’m going to follow my muse.
I am also going to challenge myself. I am doing this by allowing my muse to lead me to this new series with new characters for you, but also to make a commitment to you to start AND finish this three book series in 2019. In 2020 I hope to return to Ex Ops and Big Bad Bite and give you the stories you’ve been waiting for.
Please be patient with me.
Please don’t give up on me.
Please trust that I am going to bust my ass to bring you an unforgettable story for 2019.
And above all, know that you, the reader, matter to me. We’re a book family, and I like to think that even though I am equivalent to the nutty Aunt that you never know what she’s going to do, you still know she’s doing her best just for you.
Let’s go froth and kick 2019’s ass my friends!
Happy New Years!
P.S. If you want to stay on top of my new releases in 2019 I highly recommend you sign up for my newsletter HERE (don’t forget to add my email address to your contacts so the email doesn’t go to spam) and join my Facebook reader group “Jessie’s Jewels“. I do exclusive giveaways for the group you totally don’t want to miss. 😏
P.S.S. My “unofficial” New Year’s Resolutions are below. Although I super doubt I’ll achieve that last one, lol.